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What that means is that I was both exhausted AND agitated at the same time. So I could not sleep and I could not do anything.
A mixed state is a form of exhausted hypomania that is extremely difficult to bear because I end up having what i feel is a frustrated 'wasted' day. And I hate it.
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My latest experiment as a detached observer is over. I am back on my antipsychotic Aripiprazole (Abilify) This is what happened:
After I stopped the medication to find out whether it was having any effect, I soon found myself engulfed in a wave of agitation. This is what agitation looks like for me:
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