Blogs

One evening whilst I was still on my 'holding' medication (the tranquilising stuff), my hubby taught me how to tag my blog entries. Tagging helps readers find entries under headings that are of particular interest to them. For example, some of my tags are:

I have been quiet these past few days because writing has been beyond my capacity. Another 'interesting' time was had by my hubby and me....

I have been looking at blogs/social sites that are dedicated to depression to see what others write about it and to learn from them.

For most of those blogs/social sites, I read repetitive entries from the same people over and over again and I am ready to go and slash my wrists. My energy collapses and I feel 'depressed' in the every day sense of the word.

My friend JC suggested that I use an old army 'trick' to give me a visual representation of the fluctuations I go through - in his soldiering days, JC was used to seeing troops use such a visual representation known as The Readiness Wheel. 

The last  few days can be viewed as a total disaster or as a bit of a joke. It depends on how I am able to think and feel about it.

I leave you to judge for yourself.

Oh boy... the last few days have been tough. A continuing cycle of exhaustion and agitation, constant tearfulness, discouragement, desolation - in short, everything bi-polarism has to offer in one concentrated package! 

I don't know how you feel about it but I have felt overwhelmed and somewhat intimidated by all the technological innovations that are about these days: wiki, twitter, RSS, to name but a few. What is all that stuff ?!? Well, salvation is at hand.

When I have a chat with people who know what has happened to me over the past three years and I ask them how they are, they tend to respond by telling me apologetically that whatever troubles they have encountered or difficulties they have experienced are nothing (their emphasis not mine) compared to what I have gone through myself. It is as if their suffering wasn't worth anything.