Gabrielle's blog

I am feeling frustrated with myself. I don't seem to be getting anywhere. I don't seem to be doing anything. Life feels aimless and pointless. I find these feelings difficult to bear. I find myself difficult to put up with. In truth, I get on my own nerves.....

So, where do I go from here and what do I do now? I have no idea and it drives me crazy!

If ever there was a financial metaphor for Bi-Polarism, it is the current economic crisis. Not only that but, pleasingly enough for me, the financial world has now proved that it is as crazy as I am. 

For years, when people spoke of depression or moods, I felt like they were speaking a totally different language from mine.

For them, feeling depressed was feeling:

• Blah or blue
• Unenthusiastic
• Apathetic
• Disinterested
• Discouraged

Fo me, feeling depressed was feeling:

People who know me well will tell you that I am not a girlie person - I never was. In this sense, I suppose many would say I am 'atypical'.  I don't eat chocolate and I would rather shove needles in my eyes than watch Sex and the City. I have only one girlie trait: I love shoes...

One of the great things about the Christmas and New Year period is getting in touch with old friends. It's even better when old friends get in touch with me.

I have felt rather 'blue' lately. As a result, I have felt frustrated with myself. After all, the beginning of a new year is supposed to be a time of setting new goals and of eager anticipation. I have not been feeling like setting goals and I have lost my sense of anticipation. I haven't even felt like writing - hence my long silence.

A few months ago, my friend and neighbour, the lovely S,  gave me a little pink fridge magnet which says 'Eat cake - it's good for you'. It's a great little thing; the problem is that I have been following its advice a bit too enthusiastically....

I have been baking AND eating cakes. It would be OK if I just baked them but, once out of the oven, that cake smell is irresistible.